To continue with my self directed, self attended online book club, the next book I am going to post about is
Okay, so I know all we chicks have seen the Movie with the absolutely lovely Julia Roberts
And I am not denying that the movie is wonderful, warm, gooey, lovey with the right balance of independent and thought provoking.
But have you ever read the book?????
It is 10 times more wonderful, warm, gooey, lovey with even MORE independence and soul stirring.
Thought provoking, Absolutely!
Its almost like a really good unintended self help book.
This book came into my life at just the right time.
For those of you who have seen the movie, just scroll down a bit.
This is the story of a writer. Elizabeth Gilbert, who goes through a bitter divorce and takes a year dedicated to herself to renew her energy and find the positive in life again. She studies the art of pleasure in Italy, the art of devotion in India and the art of the balancing both pleasure and devotion in Bali. Her journey is also about letting go of her sadness, rediscovering who exactly she is and bringing her soul to God.
Now, I'll admit, the reason this book touched me so much is because of her last reason.
As a Latter Day Saint I am constantly trying to renew my relationship with our Heavenly Father and stay close to him. I need his help and the constant companionship of the Holy Ghost to make it through every day of this crazy thing we call life.
And why I believe that ours is the only true and full church here on this Earth, I am more than happy, yes even willing, to listen and learn from any one regardless of race, ethnicity, location or religion if they have good sound advice about bringing me closer to God.
I am going to be honest and open, because this novel and the experience of the author, Elizabeth Gilbert, going through her self discovery affected me and really gave me some life long habits to form.
I find that while being thrust into the new role of Mother, I sometimes find it hard to stay close to Heavenly Father. I am always so grateful for the calming spirit that always rushes into my heart when I feel like I am going to loose it with Bronson. I am always tearfully grateful for the strength that Heavenly Father gives me when its been a long night and I have to go to work tomorrow. I am overwhelmed when the Spirit whispers advice to me when I just don't know what to do to calm my baby boy down or occupy his time.
I have no doubt that all these experiences are God acknowledging that I am a Mother doing my best.
But with all the business in life, and the nature man rearing his ugly head, I find I often give into my exhaustion and feelings and tend to be Un-Christ in my actions, feelings and deeds.
I then sink deeper into my sadness. Then hate work, hate life. It's a horrible cyclic process.
This, coupled with my fight to control post partium depression, makes me feel sometimes like I drowning in the waters of life.
While Church, Scriptures, Husband, Family are all buoys to keep me afloat and out of my downward spiral, this book was another aid to keep my head above water.
She is so sound and wise.
Here are some of my favorite experiences
"When I tried this moring, after an hour or so of unhappy thinking, to dip back into my meditation, I took a new idea with me: compassion. I asked my heart if it coud please infuse my soul with more generous perspective on my mind's working. Instead of thinking that I was a failure, could I perhaps accept that I am only a human being - and a normal one, at that?"
"Of course God already knows what I need. The question is - do I know? Prayer is a
relationship; half the job is mine. If i want transformation, but can't even be bothered to articulate what, exactly, I'm aiming for, how will it ever occur? Half the benefit ofprayer is in the asking itself, in the offering of a clearly posed and well considered intention. If you don't have this, all your pleas and desires are boneless, floppy inert; they swirl at your feet in a cold fog and never lift."